I know im not perfect but i desreve respect,

and after all that's said and done,

you remain the only one in my heart.

So did we pick up a bad fight to prove who's wrong and who's right?

can we finally compromise?

I cried myself to sleep every single day without you noticing. Even when you do, you never care.
It hurts, it really hurts.Was i too nice to you? Maybe yes. I've had enough for now. I can't go on any further. I'm sick and tired. Fights every single day. Screamings and yellings every single day. And what not, crying to sleep every night. We can't go on like this. Life is not just about forgiving. Life is about appreciating and sincerity. But i don't see that in you. CHEEKY MONKEY, all i ever want to hear from you is that one word. And i mean it, please. I beg you.

Yessssaaa finally its raining. Oh I love rainy days yayyy :)I was like a zombie in school today. I kept yawing like 546587 times. Guess I'm lack of sleep due to spending my time outside every after school. same goes to hasanah who slept in class just now. you everyday sleep one lah. hahaha! get more rest okae bestfriend :)



Let me bold again that i hate my class. i hate them i hate them i really do. not in a way i hate them to the extreme where i wont be talking to any of them. some of the minorities are just too much!!


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I've not been much of myself for the past few days. At first thought, how i wish i wasn't even born. My mind's blank, and my brain's totally empty. I can't think straight right now. Everything's in a mayhem and not happening according to plan. In fact, way too far below my expectations. What a looser i am. Ohh man, i need a miracle!


So i have been thinking alot of what am i going to be in my future life. I feel like working for the casinos. I want to be a director. I want to be a teacher. I want to be an actor, not in Spore obviously. I want to be an air-stewardess. I want to fly to the moon. I want to be a good cook. I want to make peace. I want to write novels. I want to prove to my parents that dreams come true. Really. I know all of this is big but it's not wrong right to think big. HAHA. Who knows i totally be one of it. K, berangan.



only GOD knows
how much i care for him
how much i want the best for him
how much effort i have put in to prove my love
how much i miss his warm hugs and kisses
how much i miss his smiles and laughters
how much i miss his voice
how much that he had hurt my feelings.
how much tears i've shed
how many nights i have not been sleeping
how many meals i've skipped
only GOD knows
how much i miss him
how much i love him