7th

I've not been much of myself for the past few days. At first thought, how i wish i wasn't even born. My mind's blank, and my brain's totally empty. I can't think straight right now. Everything's in a mayhem and not happening according to plan. In fact, way too far below my expectations. What a looser i am. Ohh man, i need a miracle!


So i have been thinking alot of what am i going to be in my future life. I feel like working for the casinos. I want to be a director. I want to be a teacher. I want to be an actor, not in Spore obviously. I want to be an air-stewardess. I want to fly to the moon. I want to be a good cook. I want to make peace. I want to write novels. I want to prove to my parents that dreams come true. Really. I know all of this is big but it's not wrong right to think big. HAHA. Who knows i totally be one of it. K, berangan.



only GOD knows
how much i care for him
how much i want the best for him
how much effort i have put in to prove my love
how much i miss his warm hugs and kisses
how much i miss his smiles and laughters
how much i miss his voice
how much that he had hurt my feelings.
how much tears i've shed
how many nights i have not been sleeping
how many meals i've skipped
only GOD knows
how much i miss him
how much i love him