first of all, hasanah, you know we love you. we all love you, yes we do, especially me. We've been through ups and downs together. You bring joy to the class, you make us smile and laugh our ass out every single second. If you're reading this has, i really want you to know that noone is blaming you for anything, not a single thing at all. You really don't have to feel guilty for anything. everyone makes mistakes. Please don't cry again okae babe, you're a big girl now, even a small girl like me don't cry anymore :D I don't want you to feel bad about yourself, thinking that everyone hates you because we don't. And stop having that perception that you're a busybody in our class eversince you joined the school. Nobody thinks like that at all. You're the best hasanah i've ever met and the best grummy bear ever! i love you okae dear friend, cheer up babe! :D

and to you~ i love you so much syg. Those are the words that i say to you, everyday without missed. I loved you right from the start. I give you my hand and learn to share life. To keep you in my heart, i say, "i'll cherish you always as of this days" I give you my faith that these words are true. From now till the end i promise you.

i've tried everything.

but nothing seems to aside me.

i don't understand.

you left me feeling hopeless like you always do.

my patience reaching it's limit.

you don't seem to care.

i've had enough.

i give you my love.

i don't wish to take it back.

i knew it, right from the start.

you've changed.

why is this happening?

has your love for me fade away?

dear boyfriend,


i don't know where to start. and i know i have been repeating this alot of times and you must be sick and tired of it. you know i love you right from the start and i'd do so till eternity. but i simply can't refrain myself from thinking that i have been making your life miserable. and i so think it's true. you know i always shed pails of tears whenever we had a fight. but you fail to know the reason behind it. i cried because i failed to make you happy. i kept thinking that i was never the right one for you. but when you told me once that you ever cried too, it touched my heart. i never thought you would. you've been there for me when i needed you. i have no doubts that we have come this far. because i know i won't stop loving you. eventhough we fight alot, and yes i mean ALOT, we still managed to sort things out. i apologised if i ever make you mad and frustrated which i know it happened alot of times. i really appreciate the things you do for me. and your smile and funny faces, they make me melt. you're not hotstuff but you're simply adorable inside. i won't say it's like a dream come true, but it's more to fate. fate has brought us together and wants us to be together, still. i don't want to lose you. i love you. i hope you feel the same way too. till now, i never knew the reason why i have always been your"type of girl" when i think i'm so much of a troublemaker.

love,

nana

what were my dreams are now reality

you say all the things im about to speak

no one can ever change the way i feel

baby it's you and me against the world

ride or die to the very end

if your tires pop i'll be your second stand

your my man and no doubt that i'm your girl

baby it's you and me against the world

people can hate on us if they choose

no matter what they do

it's gonna be me and you forever

the way you love me is unnatural

like i'm the only girl who is existing in your world

i can't picture my life without you

you been by my side the whole way through

the chances i'll find somebody almost like you

is a million to one

so the fabolous one

I'm so proud to say that you are my first love. When we're together baby, know that you're the only one. When you came next to me and hold me closely, I know you love me. You make my story complete. I'm so happy that I got you here to hold me down. I'll never break your heart and go astray no way no how. Treasure from up above. Never betray your trust. Always thinking' 'bout us. Baby I'm forever in love, it feels so crazy when you wrap your arms around me. I place my ear against your chest to hear your heart beat. Take good care of me 'cause your the reason that I still believe our fairy tale has just begun. If I'm in a movie then don't nobody say cut. And if I could be dreaming then let me sleep forever. You're so lovely and sweet like honey. There ain't nothing' that can change the way these feelings boo.

have not blogged for the past few days due to the shitty internet breakdown.
so yeah this is what has been happening lately.

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went out with boyfriend.
watched "the journey to the centre of the earth" movie at THE CATHAY.
i soo love the movie, very funny.
den went to orchard go jalan-jalan.
den chilled out at RAFFLES PLACE, ate the left-over cheese fries that we bought at kfc at plaza singapura.

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went out with boyfriend again
watched "the mummy" movie at cineleisure orchard.
den went back home.

okae that's about it ~~~~~~


had an unpleasant morning today. A part of me feels sad while the other part of me feels happy. I really can't describe how i feel today, thousands of feelings all wrapping me up. I'm frustrated. Okay, i'm not suffering from depression or whatsoever. just having mood swings these days and boyfriend's the victim. i'm sorry. Having to face more and more problems each day is just so sucky. Relationship problems, family problems, and err, studies? i guess this is typical for teens like me. but i am sooo not used to having so much problems at one time, and have no idea how to cope with them. i wish i could help boyfriend, but i can't. i'm a useless girlfriend. as for today, things are getting a little better between me and boyfriend but still i still feel like im standing on a strand of hair waiting to fall anytime. i could feel that our relationship's getting shaky nowadays but nothing is going to stop me from being with boyfriend. that's for sure. we chat, sort things out, clear every doubts we had and tried to forget what happened earlier on. that's just the best way, forgive and forget and i know that i've done that like a million times. Pfft.

i want to stop fighting with boyfriend

i want to have a peaceful love and relationship

i want the old him, the old us

because i love him very much