I cried myself to sleep every single day without you noticing. Even when you do, you never care.
It hurts, it really hurts.Was i too nice to you? Maybe yes. I've had enough for now. I can't go on any further. I'm sick and tired. Fights every single day. Screamings and yellings every single day. And what not, crying to sleep every night. We can't go on like this. Life is not just about forgiving. Life is about appreciating and sincerity. But i don't see that in you. CHEEKY MONKEY, all i ever want to hear from you is that one word. And i mean it, please. I beg you.

Yessssaaa finally its raining. Oh I love rainy days yayyy :)I was like a zombie in school today. I kept yawing like 546587 times. Guess I'm lack of sleep due to spending my time outside every after school. same goes to hasanah who slept in class just now. you everyday sleep one lah. hahaha! get more rest okae bestfriend :)



Let me bold again that i hate my class. i hate them i hate them i really do. not in a way i hate them to the extreme where i wont be talking to any of them. some of the minorities are just too much!!


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I've not been much of myself for the past few days. At first thought, how i wish i wasn't even born. My mind's blank, and my brain's totally empty. I can't think straight right now. Everything's in a mayhem and not happening according to plan. In fact, way too far below my expectations. What a looser i am. Ohh man, i need a miracle!


So i have been thinking alot of what am i going to be in my future life. I feel like working for the casinos. I want to be a director. I want to be a teacher. I want to be an actor, not in Spore obviously. I want to be an air-stewardess. I want to fly to the moon. I want to be a good cook. I want to make peace. I want to write novels. I want to prove to my parents that dreams come true. Really. I know all of this is big but it's not wrong right to think big. HAHA. Who knows i totally be one of it. K, berangan.



only GOD knows
how much i care for him
how much i want the best for him
how much effort i have put in to prove my love
how much i miss his warm hugs and kisses
how much i miss his smiles and laughters
how much i miss his voice
how much that he had hurt my feelings.
how much tears i've shed
how many nights i have not been sleeping
how many meals i've skipped
only GOD knows
how much i miss him
how much i love him

I dread waking up early in the morning and go to school. school is fun and cool but at the same time, it tires me out. because my mind is still not adjust to school time. i've got tight schedule this week. and starting from tomorrow onwards. I'm not expecting much from the upcoming days after the clock hits 12AM sharp later on. Because i myself don't know what i want in life. I mean it's not the right time to tell what i want in life. Come what may. I mean, life has the ups and downs so let it be :] I just need to get through it. I'm not in a good mood now. Something is really bothering me right now, i don't know what is it but i've got a certain feeling that i do know about it. Let the time tell. Yeah, when karma hits reality. Now come on guys, spit it out. I can't wait any longer. This is sure killing me. Please

i apologised if i ever make u mad and frustrated which i know it happend alot of times. i really appreciate the things you do for me. and your smile and your funny faces, they make me melt. i don't want to lose you. i love you. i hope you feel the same way to. im sorry?

i ♥ you when you're silly, and always fooling around,

i ♥ you when you tickle me, eventho it makes me wriggle and fall to the ground.

i ♥ you when you're proud, your head held in the air.

i ♥ you even when you're not around, cause i know you'd always be there.

i ♥ you when you're sick, and looking at your worst.

i ♥ you when you sulk, you push me away and pout.

i ♥ you even if you don't have time for me, cause you're all worned out.

i ♥ you any way you feel, no matter what you do.

i ♥ you any way you are, i love you because you're you.