7th

i'm SORRY.
i AM sorry.
very much.
VERY VERY VERY MUCH.
overrated as it sounds, i still very much am.
i've explained and told you why i reacted that way.
and again, i AM sorry syg..
you don't deserve that. AT ALL.
not from me, not from ANYONE.
truth is, you DO matter to me.
and yes, i DO care.
but just not enough i guess.

im crying so bad and so hard, still.
i didnt and i cant sleep the whole night.
i know i cant and shouldnt cause the only one who can do all that is himself.
and fuck, i never thought i'd breakdown this hard.
it hurts real bad. ssssssoooooooooooo bad.
but yeah, it just suddenly made me all the more realise that i want him.
and ONLY HIM.
I LOVE YOU khairul rasul .
you know i do.
YOU JUST HAVE NO IDEA AT ALL HOW MUCH I DO :(

and jyeah, today is our 1YEAR AND 3MONTH.
so baby, happy 1year and 3month anni syg.
i love you KHAIRUL RASUL BIN HAMIDI.
ive told you this, and i'll say this again.
YOU MAKE ALL THE BAD THINGS I HAD TO GO THROUGH ALONE ALL WORTHWHILE BABY.
CAUSE YOU'RE WORTH IT.
AND ITS GONNA WORTH MY WHOLE LIFETIME.
AND SO ARE YOU (:
FOREVER AND EVER BABY,
I LOVE YOU.
I MISS YOU.
I NEED YOU.
IM THINKING OF YOU.
A.L.W.A.Y.S ((: